Getting lost in fleeting thoughts.
What was I thinking?
Was it important?
My mind goes to the extreme – Who did I just let down? The frustration of this experience has been eating me a live. It keeps me up at night. Scared that if I don’t remember what I was thinking that my world will crumble around me. I’ve surrendered to having to write everything down. Shut out the digital world in order to stay focused in the physical world.
The digital world? Ya, you know; social media. Those menacing notifications that cause a glimpse of blue light beckoning for my attention. That world.. Please let me stay present here for a just a few more minutes so I can get this out.
Lost in confusion, endless searching for that thought. That fleeting piece of information that could complete the puzzle.
Where did I go? My mind lost track of where it was going. Derailed by another shiny imaginary object tempting my attention. The melodic tone of this post is continuing to drive my curiosity. Wondering where it will go. Wandering my mind the like the fire roads of the forests in the Pacific Northwest.
Not knowing when or where to turn back. I’ll leave it here with this. I can be patient with myself. I can accept myself for the different paths that my thoughts take me down. At the end of each thought there is something important. I’ll revisit them when the time is right.
Am I lost or just endless wandering?